A bit of emoness at the end.

I myself and some others might have already expected an emo post on this date. It's nothing to be surprised about its emoness since today is like, the day the semester results come out. (actually i would still call it tommorow, since I havent gone to sleep yet although it's early morning. it's officially the next day only after i had a sleep and wake up)

Long post ahead. Be prepared. you can click to other sites or that red button up there if you want to, it's ok.

Today afternoon i went to the Spring with Soon Eng, saykhia and Chiong Lee. Thanks for the ride Soon Eng, I am so glad that you drove or else I would never go with the crazy traffic there.

Guess who i met at the Spring! It's Johnny, my secondary school classmate and friend! What a coincidence to see him there. Well, actually, he saw me first. I was so happy to see him. I guess I really do miss my old friends more than I thought I did. We are not exactly so the very close so I was quite surprised at myself that I was that happy to see him.

Anyway, we greeted each other with hi and he stuck his hand out to me in a gesture for a handshake. Quite weird huh, that young adults of 20 years in age and also friends would greet each other with a handshake. Of course I had to shake his hand, or else it would be left hanging there and he would be embarassed if I didn't. So formal lah, I even felt weird. It's not like we baru get introduced to each other or anything like that. Personally I thought of hugging him, it would be fine for me even with so many people around (who cares to look anyway, huh). But cause he stuck his hand out I couldn't do so.

So I tak jadi give him a hug lah. -___-
Really sweat, looks like Johnny is as kolot as always even in this kinda time and age.

So we parted ways after exchanging some conversation.

And then I saw Miss Phang in a clothes shop. Actually she saw me first. Yeah, I am quite blur sometimes when I am walking around, but that doesnt mean I am rude. It's not that i don't wanna say hi first, I just don't really notice people.

So we said hi to each other. She told me she bought some shoes for CNY. I asked if she had bought all her new year clothes; she said no. Then she asked me the same question, I said yes, around Christmas time.

Her reaction was : "Wah, you bought all your clothes so fast already! You memang kiasu huh, Shopping also so kiasu."

What the.....-____-*

Imagine how -_____-* I was in that situation. She giggle giggle giggle and I did too, dunno why. It's an automatic reaction to giggle together I think. I proceeded to defend my case of shopping during Christmas by telling her that there's sale during that time. Plus there's not gonna be much sales anymore before CNY. And they tend to raise the price before CNY.

And it's like she doesn't believe me.

I could not manage to defend my case any further with her giggling away and eyes wide in disbelief at my claims.

I don't really know who is the kiasu person here. She told me she went to the Spring on the first day and today was the second time she was there. IF not kiasu why come twice huh.

Everyone should do their clothes shopping for CNY during Christmas. You can take your sweet time and find something you really like; instead of rushing to buy something for CNY just weeks before. What if you don't find something you like? You'll keep searching and searching and with the pressure of CNY drawing nearer, you'd be forced to settle with something which only looks okay instead of buying something you really like. Most of my relatives and friends do their shopping waaaay earlier. I guess her's just doesn't. Or she dismissed the brilliant idea of early shopping as kiasuness.

Plus you really do have more sales and better discount during Christmas! I forgot to tell her, but I went to that branch of clothes store we were in during Christmas, and there was 20% discount on most of the items! And no discount today. On those same items which I saw before, no discount! That pair of shorts were supposed to be marked down by 20% off its price! AND there's more new stock of clothes coming in for Christmas instead of CNY. So more choice. There you go. You don't have to be a pro to know all this.

Lets stop all that and get back to my emoness. I feel so.......insecure right now. I hope all goes well tommorow, I really want that pass for my programming subject. I just want a pass, a pass so badly, I think if I do pass my programming I would be very thankful and very happy that I did pass my programming exam.

I know that I've gone through this before with last semester's physics B and it all went well in the end, thanks a lot for that. But I hadn't got used to the anxiety of exam results, who had? And going through this anxiety and insecurity again is so much of a torture to me. I think it's worse than pain right now.

There's a lot I want to say right now. But sense maybe, stopped me from doing so. This post would be waaay longer if I had not put that much thought into what I type out, and there wont be any post at all, if I had thought properly of what I want to say. In this mood, a day before the results are out, the thoughts would be depressing. But it's only what i feel at the moment.

I hope everything's gonna be okay.................