Carpark nightmare

Just now I had my classes ending at 7.30pm. The sun has set and it's dark, and since I don't like walking alone to where my car was parked at the multistorey carpark building, I asked a guy friend to accompany me there. Coincidentally he parked his car at the carpark too.

But he parked at the 1st floor while my car was a few more stories up. So I requested that he accompany me to my car and I'll stop him by his vehicle on my drive down.

I thought I had parked my car at the 3rd floor, so my friend and I went all the way to the 3rd floor. We used the lift at the ground floor. The lift area was lit there. But when the lift stopped at the 3rd floor and its door opened, we came to a 3rd floor which wasn't lit. And when I opened the door out to the carpark area, it's pitch black! Literally! Not a single light was on.

I saw one car parked at the far end of the 3rd floor car park. But it wasn't mine! I started to panic because I remember parking at the 3rd floor. And now my car's not there!

The whole floor was very dark, I was really freaked out because I hated carparks which are dimly lit, they're scary to me; and what's more is the whole carpark floor was pitch dark. You cannot even imagine. That kind of dark empty space is really really scary.

My friend told me not to worry, my car should be okay, and I must have remembered the wrong floor. Sure enough, when we went to the 2nd floor, my car was there. This 2nd floor had an unlit lift area as well. And although there are lights at this floor, we only found our way to my car assisted by a few fluorescent tubes lighting a large space. Which makes it still very, very dim.

Quickly I walked to my car and locked the door when I got in with my friend. Then I felt safer.

I went to sleep rather early shortly after I got home, since I'm extremely tired. And just now I had nightmares about the carpark. Woke up in a little sweat and now I can't sleep a wink even if I tried. And it's only 2am.

Maybe carparks scare only me in particular to the point of getting nightmares. Others might not get nightmares.

Although I was accompanied by a male friend, I still felt it was really unsafe for the both of us. I repeat, the whole floor was pitch black, even the lift area.It's only 7.30pm. Why can't the carpark floor be more brightly lit? It's a carpark, for goodness sake. Bad things always happen at the carpark. With that kind of pitch darkness, you wouldn't realize it at all even if there was a guy with a knife hiding behind the pillar three feet in front of you.

Someone could be lurking next to your car while you walk from the other side in the darkness. And when you open the car door and get into the driver's seat, he could simply enter from the other passenger seat and put a knife to your throat. What will you do next? Scream? Will you dare to scream? By the time someone got there (if they even heard you), you'd be dead already. I shudder at the consequences.

Many people have night classes that end later than 7.30pm. And some are girls. (girls or guys, it's still dangerous) At least they should keep the place brightly lit until 9.45pm, a little longer after the last classes end. They only bother to switch on a few lights on the ground floor where there are more cars, and a few lights at the 2nd floor. This is an inappropriate time to be thinking of saving up on electricity. When something bad happens, it's too late to be sorry and change anything. Nothing can be reversed then.

I'm thinking of complaining to the student admin.

Hello new semester, byebye free time

Today I had my first lecture this semester. I'm not feeling particularly excited for the new semester. I'm reluctant to get busy with anything which is quite unlike me cause I actually get bored of having no classes. Yeah, I do.

Maybe it's because today is the first day of new semester and I have my lecture in the evening, until 6.30pm. That, and a lecturer who seems to go on forever and ever about redundant things. He can talk one hour about logbook keeping! Plus he scares his students about subs we're taking and such. Can't we have some positiveness and encouragement? IT IS the first day of semester after all. His 'welcoming' speech lecture should inject into his students a strong burning passion to take on the new semester and all its challenges ahead.

Bella said he is a nice lecturer though. And he seems nice when you first meet him too. Lets see how it goes on further into the semester.

I am in need of enthusiasm.

:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,

NAKASHIMA MIKA!

I'm back!

I'm back from a shopping trip to KL and then a trip to Sibu for the Chinese New Year. It's quite tiring to be off a plane back from KL to Kuching and then onto a plane to Sibu the next day.

Chinese New Year was like always, it's great. But the angpow amount this year decreased again (like I expected). And I thought I could do some more shopping for the coming academic semester, lol. Some things on my mind like comfortable shoes, new bag, and new hair color which I might have to hide from my mum. Stuff like books and pens.

Since I was in Sibu for the past week or so, I've been deprived of internet surfing, which is my night time hobby. So instead, I annoyed my aunt by reading her Doraemon comics: 'Perang Terakhir antara Syaitan dan Manusia' XDDDDDDD (it's in BM language haha) and not switching off the lights until late night while she tried hard to sleep with the lights on. I am quite sorry for that. And I borrowed one of her books home. Some "Words of wisdom: Tales from ancient China" title while ignoring her "Where did you dig that up from" face.





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Since I can online today, I'm very happy to be able to log into my forums and to discover that Mika Nakashima's new single has been leaked already! I've waited so long for it, and very very excited that Mika is releasing new material.

Let me show you the new single cover:

Here. It's not that good of a single cover; this cover doesn't do Mika justice at all. She's had much much much much much (times a gazillion) better single covers than this one. They decided to go all natural for this album cover I guess, since the cover of Eien no Uta (the last single) had lotsa art incorporated.

See? Eien no Uta cover. Very pretty cover art right?


Okay, show you the promo picture now:

On one hand I think that this promo picture is better than the album cover, but on the other hand when it's not enlarged or if you see from afar this picture makes her look like a dead person T_______T

I hate to be saying things like this about Mika when I am such a big fan of her and when she is such a beautiful person T________T

Like one forum initiate said: "The Japanese like ugly covers". So lets just hope that with this "ugly" cover, this single will be able to sell well and top the charts =D

Besides not doing Mika any justice at all, the cover also doesn't do the songs on it any justice. As the saying goes, 'Do not judge a book an album / a single by it's cover'.

Like anyone who knows me well would know, I had the songs on this single playing in a loop since I downloaded it. And I love love love love this single cause the songs are just so goood!!!!!!

Tracklist:
1. SAKURA ~花霞~
2. SAKURA ~花霞~ (DAISHI DANCE)
3. conFusiOn

I'm happy that Mika is releasing another ballad (cause many fans are waiting for one!). The title track, SAKURA ~花霞~ (Sakura ~Hanagasumi~) is the ballad every fan of Mika's ballads are waiting for (exaggerate a bit). A very good ballad which are as good as (if not better than) her other famous ballads (Yuki no Hana, Hitori, Sakurairo Maukoro) This song focuses on her unique haunting voice with piano music normally used in her ballads.

The Daishi dance remix is a really good remix, so although it's 6 minutes long you really won't feel bored with it at all. Some forum initiates even said that the Daishi dance remix of Sakura ~Hanagasumi~ is better than the original version. In my opinion, it's up to personal preference really. I find both equally exceptional (not because I am a BIG Mika fan). If you like the true Mika ballad, then go for the original; if you like a more upbeat tune, go for the remix. When I first listened to the original and it's remix, I thought the remix was a different song (which would be perfectly fine too if it is), which is a pleasant surprise.

conFusiOn? I like this B-side a lot. Again, Mika explored a different type of music style which isn't the normal Jpop we usually listen to (honestly I don't much like the normal Jpop). Mika's music is somehow an acquired taste, cause her music is a potpourri of jazz, soul, R&B, reggae, ballad and rock. This is what I love a lot about Mika, she's able to interest her fans into other types of music by incorporating them into her songs. I really hope this song is gonna be in her new upcoming album, since this song is used in her Kanebo KATE CM (her KATE CMs usually appear in her albums). Login to the Japan Kanebo KATE website to watch the CM, or search for it on youtube!

With the tie-ins with commercials for the songs in this single, (Sakura ~Hanagasumi~ for Panasonic and conFusiOn for Kanebo KATE) I hope this single will sell well by itself and propel Mika up the charts!

I am THAT excited with this single that I am able to write a review about it (which is very rare of me to be that hardworking) and I thought "Why stop there?" so here are the links to download the song....(Credits to FoxxyFuyumi from AHS). And since I don't do reviews that often, sorry if my review is boring; it's my personal opinion only. I'm not very good at describing what I listen to except saying "It's so good!" ="= You'll have to decide if you like the songs by listening to them.


Links:
1. SAKURA ~花霞~
2. SAKURA ~花霞~ (DAISHI DANCE)
3. conFusiOn

Rustic or refined

I've received many comments from people about my ways. To be more exact, my rustic ways.

My neighbour once commented that I walk very fast, and I am sure that most people would agree with that too. I do walk fast.

Another comment which might as well be a well known fact about me is that I am loud. I talk loudly and talk so much that I annoy people around me most of the time.

Plus, I have been told by people I'm about as graceful as a cow. I always bump into things: chairs, tables, hit my foot at the door, etc etc.

Honestly lah, I feel quite sad myself that I am like that. Why others can walk normal speed while I cant? Why others can speak so softly that people can hardly hear them at all? Why others can stand shutting up while I cant? Why others don't bump into things?

It's not that I havent tried to change that, it's just that old habits die hard and most of the time, I just forget. So I keep getting comments about my rustic ways. And I am quite embarassed by them....

I wish I'd be more like a girl.

A bit of emoness at the end.

I myself and some others might have already expected an emo post on this date. It's nothing to be surprised about its emoness since today is like, the day the semester results come out. (actually i would still call it tommorow, since I havent gone to sleep yet although it's early morning. it's officially the next day only after i had a sleep and wake up)

Long post ahead. Be prepared. you can click to other sites or that red button up there if you want to, it's ok.

Today afternoon i went to the Spring with Soon Eng, saykhia and Chiong Lee. Thanks for the ride Soon Eng, I am so glad that you drove or else I would never go with the crazy traffic there.

Guess who i met at the Spring! It's Johnny, my secondary school classmate and friend! What a coincidence to see him there. Well, actually, he saw me first. I was so happy to see him. I guess I really do miss my old friends more than I thought I did. We are not exactly so the very close so I was quite surprised at myself that I was that happy to see him.

Anyway, we greeted each other with hi and he stuck his hand out to me in a gesture for a handshake. Quite weird huh, that young adults of 20 years in age and also friends would greet each other with a handshake. Of course I had to shake his hand, or else it would be left hanging there and he would be embarassed if I didn't. So formal lah, I even felt weird. It's not like we baru get introduced to each other or anything like that. Personally I thought of hugging him, it would be fine for me even with so many people around (who cares to look anyway, huh). But cause he stuck his hand out I couldn't do so.

So I tak jadi give him a hug lah. -___-
Really sweat, looks like Johnny is as kolot as always even in this kinda time and age.

So we parted ways after exchanging some conversation.

And then I saw Miss Phang in a clothes shop. Actually she saw me first. Yeah, I am quite blur sometimes when I am walking around, but that doesnt mean I am rude. It's not that i don't wanna say hi first, I just don't really notice people.

So we said hi to each other. She told me she bought some shoes for CNY. I asked if she had bought all her new year clothes; she said no. Then she asked me the same question, I said yes, around Christmas time.

Her reaction was : "Wah, you bought all your clothes so fast already! You memang kiasu huh, Shopping also so kiasu."

What the.....-____-*

Imagine how -_____-* I was in that situation. She giggle giggle giggle and I did too, dunno why. It's an automatic reaction to giggle together I think. I proceeded to defend my case of shopping during Christmas by telling her that there's sale during that time. Plus there's not gonna be much sales anymore before CNY. And they tend to raise the price before CNY.

And it's like she doesn't believe me.

I could not manage to defend my case any further with her giggling away and eyes wide in disbelief at my claims.

I don't really know who is the kiasu person here. She told me she went to the Spring on the first day and today was the second time she was there. IF not kiasu why come twice huh.

Everyone should do their clothes shopping for CNY during Christmas. You can take your sweet time and find something you really like; instead of rushing to buy something for CNY just weeks before. What if you don't find something you like? You'll keep searching and searching and with the pressure of CNY drawing nearer, you'd be forced to settle with something which only looks okay instead of buying something you really like. Most of my relatives and friends do their shopping waaaay earlier. I guess her's just doesn't. Or she dismissed the brilliant idea of early shopping as kiasuness.

Plus you really do have more sales and better discount during Christmas! I forgot to tell her, but I went to that branch of clothes store we were in during Christmas, and there was 20% discount on most of the items! And no discount today. On those same items which I saw before, no discount! That pair of shorts were supposed to be marked down by 20% off its price! AND there's more new stock of clothes coming in for Christmas instead of CNY. So more choice. There you go. You don't have to be a pro to know all this.

Lets stop all that and get back to my emoness. I feel so.......insecure right now. I hope all goes well tommorow, I really want that pass for my programming subject. I just want a pass, a pass so badly, I think if I do pass my programming I would be very thankful and very happy that I did pass my programming exam.

I know that I've gone through this before with last semester's physics B and it all went well in the end, thanks a lot for that. But I hadn't got used to the anxiety of exam results, who had? And going through this anxiety and insecurity again is so much of a torture to me. I think it's worse than pain right now.

There's a lot I want to say right now. But sense maybe, stopped me from doing so. This post would be waaay longer if I had not put that much thought into what I type out, and there wont be any post at all, if I had thought properly of what I want to say. In this mood, a day before the results are out, the thoughts would be depressing. But it's only what i feel at the moment.

I hope everything's gonna be okay.................

first post of the year

here i am at 4.15 in the morning writing the first ever blog entry for the year 2008. i'm insomniac. or probably it's the tea i drank yesterday night which kept me awake till now.

i dont even care to type in proper capitalization, i feel lazy. blogger should really autocaps the first letter after the period.

i went to bed around 2am but kept lying awake and couldn't sleep, i tried singing words to songs which popped into my head but stopped sometime after cause i am worried that i'll wake up the girl next door.

and then there's that whining dog from one of the houses at the back row. maybe it's in pain, or maybe it's even whining cause it cant stand my singing voice which was projected to its ears.

gosh, i do wish i have a blackberry, eh? wont it be easier to actually blog through a blackberry in the middle of the night when something comes to your mind, instead of having go through the hassle of switching on your computer and then signing in to blogger to write a blog entry?

it would be much more....natural that way. being able to jot down whatever thoughts which goes through your mind at any time. then you'd truly be able to keep in memory what you truly went through in a day, in a week, in a year, in a span of your life.

if you write out what happened to you yesterday in your blog, won't the story be different? wont the feelings be different? 24 hours or more passed, after all, and feelings change as well as you forget things rather quickly.

as often as they say blogs are outlets in which you can freely express ur feelings, i think not many people are truly honest when writing blogs. or they could write it a different way, which is avoiding writing really personal feelings, feelings in detail. they would only type out their feelings and thoughts in general. writing about things which aren't about their personal issues. what they said about an online diary? nonsense.

people dont treat blogs like an online diary. i most certainly do not think my blog is an online diary. people dont really like to write about personal stuff on their blogs. they write about other things of their interest.

when we had our writing course and had to passup weekly journals it was good. i was able to write about things which are personal to me. personal thoughts. that was because no one would really find out my thoughts and feelings that way. only the lecturer. and i was rather happy that she told me she enjoyed reading what i wrote. not to be proud that i have excellent writing skills or anything like that for the praise, but i was actually happy that someone can read what i felt and thought, she did not judge me from my writing. if she did, who cares? i dont really feel much if the lecturer judged me as a person from my thoughts and feelings.

sometimes, i think thoughts and have opinions which i'd very much like to write down in the blog. but when i actually get myself to type it out, i just could not hit the publish button. in the end i just spent time typing all of that for it to be deleted forever. i guess it's some kind of therapy to get it out on the computer screen. at least i am inputting my thoughts into the computer if i cant get anyone to listen to what i have to say and judge me thenafter.

i have friends telling me their thoughts every now and then. i ask silently, why arent they writing this up in their blogs since they have one? they really care what people think of them, people judge others too often. smarter ones blog under a pseudonym, never linking to anyone, never letting themselves be linked, and only allowing a handful of trusted ones to have access to their blog.

what do you really feel right now? what's really on your mind right now? do u really write it all down in your blog? i have a feeling a majority would answer no.

i'm the kind of person who wouldn't want others to figure me out too much, i thought that i am one from very few who islike that, but i guess others discreetly are such people as well..

ugh, my head hurts from not being able to fall asleep..........
it's 4.48am now, i should probably go to sleep....

this time, i'll click the publish button, but like many other deleted blog entries before it, i hope it wont be deleted by me the next time i sign in to my blog.

and come to my senses, after sleep. right now i'm just sleepy.